A Christmas Revelation

I know how ironic this will sound: I'm a Pagan who gets the utmost joy out of attending Catholic mass. Anywho, last night during Christmas mass (at midnight, the witching hour, no less) a thought occured to me, could I be both a devout Catholic, and a devout Witch? Well according to my fave author, Raven Digitalis, (I recieved his opinion on this matter this morning on myspace.) the two religions are completely compatable. especially, as his uni teacher put it to him, "Catholoicism the most Pagan of Christian paths." He even suggest a book to me, that sounds like an amazing read that I can't wait to get my hands on. Here's the link to the book:

http://www.amazon.com/ChristoPaganism-Inclusive-Path-River-Higginbotham/dp/0738714674/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1261749497&sr=8-1#reader_0738714674

I then did more research on my own, and came across this website, that is highly helpful to my spiritual wonderings: http://northernway.org/cpinfo.html

I've always had an intense relationship with St. Mary. She's guided me for a long time. And now I think I'll finally add her to my religious beliefs. I've fully decided I want to be baptized in a Catholic Church, and at the same time, undergo a self dedication/wiccaning/self initiation of some kind to wicca.

I've been pondering this path a long time, and I'm glad I've finally decided how to handle it.

Happy Yuletide and Merry Christmas Everyone!

La Carmina!

Okay, so i'm officially inlove with this girls website! Her style is fantastic! And her cat is adorable! She has an awesome goth fashion blog everyone needs to check out, whether they're goth or not.



P.S.

Merry Christmas to those who celebrate it!

home again, home again, jiggity jig. . .

just got home from a weekend long stay at my aunt's. she's in her early 30's, and we're more like friends than aunt-niece. so staying at her house is always fun. especially when her and my uncle gave me $175 to go buy clothes. which i was actually in need of. I love that I'm losing weight. honest, i do. But when all your clothes are getting rather baggy and bum looking. . . well. . . time to go shopping. So we headed out to walmart and i came home with a heaping $125 worth, which is a lot at wally-world. then we went to the mall. and i'll be honest. I went to Hot-Topic. but I only got a few clothing items. I got a Nightmare Before Christmas tee (purple with sally on it), and a Tripp tutu skirt (red and black). I also got a Nightmare hat, two cozy blankets (one had the Mad Hatter from Alice in Wonderland on it, the other was a Nightmare one), some sheer black lip gloss, some nightmare hairties, and something else i can't seem to remember. lol. And in honor of Yule tomorrow I paid a small visit to Blue Moon, the local pagan store. I had to get some Yule incense, since I ran out of time to make my own, and I also pick up a jar of Angelica, which I've been meaning to get since before Samhain. I also got my 2010 calender, a purple and black celtic pentacle tote bag, a large black book of shadows with a gold pentacle on the front, and some really cute matches. one box has pics of stonehenge, the other has pics of vampires. And i had to put back the tarot bag i wanted, and also the book I need to get: Cunningham's Encyclopedia of Magickal Herbs. but all in all, a wonderful weekend. and as my uncle put it, I made out like a bandit!

Mark Ingram

I just wanna give a big shout out to Mark and his family. I'm so excited for all of you, this is awesome. Congrats Mark! Everyone back in Grand Blanc was rooting for you!

I have this weird sense of pride going on right now. Mark's practically a celebrity now. I mean, he went to school with me for crying out loud! I'm friends with his younger sister! How f*cking awesome is that?

I'm Emily the Strange!

I know this pic cuts off a bit, but it's not by much.

My Birthday Wish . . .

I'm trying to raise $500 for Peta for my birthday! If you would like to help make this happen, please go to this URL: http://apps.facebook.com/causes/birthdays/224970

and if you haven't already, please watch the video in the previous post!

Happy Thanksvegan! (Or Tofurky day if you prefer :) )

Happy (early) Tofurky Day!

Since Thanksgiving is on Thursday (and I may or may not be able to post before then) I thought I'd post this video today:

Twilight Activism!

You can say what you want about Twilight. Personally, I'm a Twilighter (or, if you prefer, Twi-Hard) myself. But you know it's a good craze when it's stars are using their fame for activism, or when the movie itself can be used for activism. Here's some clips of some PETA2 ads from Twilight/ New Moon! click on the link below the pic to see the full size of the pic.



http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/kontisthewolfprincess/19223.jpg



http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/kontisthewolfprincess/800-twilightad-werewolf.jpg



http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/kontisthewolfprincess/800-twilightad-vampire.jpg

Guests. . .

I love my sister's boyfriend, okay? He's been one of my best friends since 6th grade. But he's been at my house for 72 hours straight! I wish he would just go home already! "fish and visitors smell in three days" . . . .

The Twilight Saga: New Moon review

If I was asked to sum up New Moon in two words, I'd say "F*cking Fantastic!"

No, seriously, it's that amazing! It was so close to the book, that me and my best friend were able to sit in the theater and recite the lines! (or atleast guess them). Everything was just amazingly done. Everyone looked exactly as I'd imagined them. The wolves were amazing looking! Huge! and Volterra and the meadow looked great! My friend complained that the meadow in Twilight looked nothing like what he'd imagined it, but the meadow in New Moon. . . exactly what he'd seen in his head! The only line they left out of the movie that I'd wished they'd kept was from the scene in which Jacob goes into Bella's room to tell her to guess what he was and that he was sorry. He's in the tree, and Bella asks him what he's doing. In response, he says, "keeping a promise." so bella says, "When did you promise to kill yourself by falling out of Charlie's tree?" They left that bit out of the movie. Only thing I wanted to see that they left out. Maybe it'll be an extended scene on the DVD. . . .

But honestly, if you see one movie in theaters this month, see New Moon. It's got the girly romance [well, hot shirtless Taylor Lautner anyway ], and tons of fight scenes (okay, only like 3 major really, but awesome anyway)! It's got something for everyone, except maybe kids under 12 or 13. I give it 2 "fangs" up!

:(

I liked it better when ppl commented on my blog posts. *cries* lmao.


Don't ask. I'm in a weird mood.

Soundtrack to My Suicide part 2

Here is the track listing as of right now, based on what's in my ipod. I highly doubt it'll stay this way. lol. and yeah, I realize it's in alphabetical order. It won't be when I finalize it! No idea what the soundtrack even is? read the previous post!

1. "Decode" -- Paramore
2. "Girl Next Door" -- Saving Jane
3. "I'm So Sick"-- Flyleaf
4. "I Like" -- Katy Rose
5. "Imaginary" -- Evanescence
6. "Innocence" -- Avril Lavigne
7. "Iris" -- The Goo Goo Dolls
8. "Jesus of Suburbia" -- Green Day
9. "Leave Out All the Rest" -- Linkin Park
10. "Letters From the Sky" -- Civil Twilight
11. "Losing Grip" -- Avril Lavigne
12. "Me Against the World" -- Simple Plan
13. "Pain" -- Three Days Grace
14. "Second Chance" -- Shinedown
15. "Stand My Ground" -- Within Temptation
16. "Untitled" -- Simple Plan
17. "Welcome to My Life" -- Simple Plan
18. "21 Guns" -- Green Day

In the final listing, I anticipate a little less Simple Plan, and a little more Green Day. And I'm pondering "Breaking the Habit" by Linking Park, but since I haven't broken any of the habits the song makes me think about. . . . Idk. And I'll most likely end up with ICP's "Juggalo Family" in there. Oh, and there will probably be more "Goth" songs on the finally. Like the HorrorPops. and Rasputina, Ministry, Lacuana Coil, Smashing Pumpkins, Love and Rockets, ect. This might turn into a 2 disc situation. . . .

Soundtrack to my Suicide part 1

To understand the point of the post, scroll down. It's beneath the lyrics. Otherwise, you'll just be really confused.


Iris by Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


yeah, yeah, I know, a Goth girl who listens to the Goo Goo Dolls? Let the criticism rain! I don't care. I may be Goth, but guess what, I'm not a music snob. There is soooo much more to being Goth than the music scene. Goth is a perspective of the world and a way of life. And as one of my adult Goth friends told me, the way to know who the real Goths are, and who are the Wannabes is to go to a Goth club and wait for some mainstream music perferably rap/hiphop (they get the best results) to be played by the DJ (and yeah, they do that.) The people who snub the music, say "that's not Goth!" and walk off the dance floor are the wannabes. Those ones who are on the dance floor, singing along, dancing, and having a blast with their fellow dark-siders, those are the real Goths. okay, the singing part might be an exageration, but the dancing and having fun part isn't. Real goths listen to what they want, when they want, because guess what, they know they're goth, and anyone who tells them otherwise is ignorant. anyway, on to why I posted the song. . .


I adore this song. This was the very first music video I ever remember seeing as a kid. No, really. I was like 6 when I seen it. okay, maybe I saw Thriller first, but you get the point. I've been inlove with this song for over 10 years. The lyrics always had alot of impact on me, but now it seems to hit me harder. I don't know why. one of my fave lines is "When everything feels like the movies, yeah you bleed just to know you're alive." I love that. okay, maybe it's a super emo line, but I know what it's decribing. And I have the physical, emotional, and mental scars to prove it. And of course, who doesn't feel something when they listen to the chorus? Gods, everyone's had that feeling atleast once in their life. And I've decided it makes a great song for the Twilight Saga.

The main reason I'm posting the song, is that I'm finally getting around to putting together my "soundtrack" for my life (the working title of which is The Soundtrack to My Suicide due to my multiple suicide attempts. hey, I think it's clever anyway). I have 17 years worth of experience to try and compress into roughly 20 songs. It's definantly going to be an interesting experience! If anyone has any suggestions for songs ( you don't have to know me that well to suggest something. I tell almost anything important going on in my life on here.) let me know!

Dear Twilight Saga

Dear Twilight Saga,

I hate you, it's true. And I'm sure you're going to ask why since everyone else seems to either love you completely or hate you for shallow reasons that I could easily disprove. I hate you Twilight, because I am obsessed with you. I try not to, especially since Sparkly Vampires are an epic fail if I've ever seen one, and the story of werewolves vs vampires was already used (rather well) by Underworld. But nonetheless, I am Twilighted. And it is all your fault. So tomorrow, I will wear my Twiligh hat and gloves to school, along with my replica of Alice's choker. and at lunch I will be reading Twilight, then New Moon in a week or so. and on the 20th, at midnight, I'll be sitting in a darkened theatere to see New Moon. and it's all your fault. Just know I'll be hating you all the while. Because we both know we enjoy this love/hate relationship.

Sincerly,
Ella, the Monster Grrl

happy november

well, Halloween was kick ass as usual. my party plans got ruined, so i started trick or treating over half an hour late. so most kids had already gone through my 'hood. so, everyone was giving us like, handfuls of candy!

in contrast, today was rather awful. I woke up 3 hours late, and needed a shower and my clothes were in the washer still. on top of that, i'd missed the bus. then, when i went to walk around my house and try to get ready, everything kept falling on me. My younger sister was like "dude, I think this is a sign from god that you should go back to bed!" lmao. so that's what i did. I took a day off from school. and kinda liked it, cept now i have tons of homework. on the brightside, no school tomorrow either!

the week from hell

okay. time for a little depressed venting.


I have literally had a week from hell. Monday, I came home and was doing my usual chores, which include feeding our dogs, which are kept outside so that they have more room to move about, when I noticed that, Wilbur, my chocolate lab's cyst had doubled, almost tripled, in size and had burst open. Later that night, we took him to the Vet, who told us Wilbur had cancer. They wouldn't do anything for him until we got all of his shots updated, but we didn't want to do that if we were going to end up having to put him down. They wouldn't even sew up the wound or give him antibiotics to prevent infection. When I got home from the vet's I discovered my goldfish had died, and that $5 had been stolen out of my wallet. The next day my whole pack of cigs had been stolen. After a few days of intense thought, we decided that it would be best to put Wilbur down because A) the cancer was spreading and B) we simply do not have enough money to spend $1,000 to remove the cancer plus $5,000 for each Chemo treatment. We were supposed to put him down Friday, but that had to be pushed back to yesterday morning, and by then he had gangrene. Of course, they told us then, in the office that we had other options. NOW we could meet with the actually surgeon and get a lower number. But once you have gangrene you are either going to die, or you have to get something amputated. but since the wound was on his stomach, surgery to remove the infection wasn't an option. we no longer had a choice. Watching Wilbur be put down was simply the most difficult thing I've ever had to witness.

Wilbur was born in the summer of 2002, and died autumn 2009. He was only seven years old.

:P

I can't believe it's the end of October already; this month has flown by! Halloween is coming up fast, and I can't wait. I'm gonna party it up with some friends I don't usually get a chance to hang with.

Friendship Is Golden!

Not much has really been happening here in Dullsville. Last Tuesday was Mabon, which was simply amazing. I spent the whole day in celebration of the harvest, one of my friends even came over to help celebrate. Friday was my town's homecoming, which kicked ass! My school always has a half day for Homecoming, and the majority of our time in school is spent at something we call interclass games. which is always hilarious. Kinda sad that they got rid of the pie eating contest. anyway. . . afterwards, me and 3 of my best friends headed down town to watch the parade in support of how many of our friends happend to be in it. We then headed out to the football game. I didn't even watch the game, I mean, I know we won (the score was like 32 to 17 or something like that), but that's about it. I spent most of my night by the pizza stand talking to my friend who was working it. and then this little group of our friends just showed up. I was so full of energy when I got home that I couldn't sleep! It's a good thing I didn't go to the dance, I crashed early the next night. oh, and my cat's in heat for the first time. which is definatly interesting. she's uber whiny, and wants people to cuddle her constantly. she could care less out the male cats out the window. she just wants to cuddle with everyone. all. the. time. which is getting on my nerves a bit.

But on the brightside, now, out of nowhere, a bunch of my old friends are popping up. And by old friends I mean the people I hung out with in like the 5th grade and stuff. It's amazing! My two all time best friends (there's a pic of the three of us still hanging above my bed) have both talked to me in the past 2 days. Z's been my BFF since the 3rd grade, at one time we were so close that the only thing that kept people from asking if we were sisters was our difference in skin color. But after she moved we lost touch. Thank the gods for facebook, that's how we got back in touch! and J, well, he's another story. He was my first love, and I swear he's my soul mate. we've been BFFs since the first grade. I've helped him move out of his house. I almost stayed the night at his house a few times. our parents were friends. I was even friends with his older sister. we did everything together, and were inseparable for almost 7 years of our life. and unlike with Z, I never really lost touch with him. when he first moved, we'd call eachother at least once a month, usually more, then we kinda stopped. and mostly use myspace to keep in touch. but the greatest part of hearing from the 2 of them is that the contacted me instead of the other way around, and just when I was thinking of them most. It's almost like we're all on the same wave length at the moment!

well, i'm gonna fall asleep. later!

WTF?????

Avril Lavigne and her husband are getting separated!!! She posted it in her blog no more than 2 hours ago. I honestly can't believe it. they've been dating since she was 19. friends since she was 17. I thought they would actually make it, unlike all the other celeb couples out there. I guess being a rocker doesn't change any of that shit. I'm glad they'll continue to be friends though, because they make some awesome music together.

busy busy busy :(

The one thing I didn't miss about school was the work! I love school, don't get me wrong. And I'm good at it. But I actually sat down the other night and figured out exactly how much time in the day a highschool student has to themselves. well, you spend 8 hours in school, and teenagers are supposed to sleep 9 hours. Give yourself an hour each for dinner, breakfast/getting ready in the morning, and bathing. That leaves us teens with 4 hours to do homework and relax. I don't know about you, but I spend more than 4 hours on homework everynight. The only thing we can really skimp on is sleep. So teens rarely ever get the amount of sleep we actually need. And adults wonder why teenagers are so grumpy all the time.

With that said, I have know idea how I found a few minutes to type this. I just finished typing up a 3 page American Lit essay, and am about to start on a whole chapters worth of Algebra II homework. and then, if I somehow manage to finish that before midnight, I have to chapters worth of AP Economics notes to copy.

To put me further on edge, I can't do homework on the weekends because I'm at Ren Fest. And next Tuesday I won't even be at school because I'll be off for religious observance as it's Mabon (the Autumn Equinox).

Well, I guess that really is the end of my free time. Hopefully I'll be able to still blog more than once a week!

The Vampire Diaries Review, and something I saw that annoys me. . .

Okay, not alot of time here, so I'll take care of this first. The Vampire Diaries premired tonight on the CW (as well as the new season of Supernatural), and is based on a book series that I'm a fan of. While there are many differences from the book, the show was extremly good at keeping the overall feeling of the story intact (which to me, is almost more important that getting all the details right). The acting was good (did any one notice who plays the brothers? :D ), and on top of all that, the music played throughout the show was amazing. I don't know about you, but if a show has good music in it, I'm more likely to watch it (honestly, there are shows I've watched solely for the music, anyway. . ).

Sorry, it's kinda dry. Maybe I'll give another review at the end of the season.

Now, on to what annoyed me immensly (spelling?) today. It was a convo on facebook that my friend was having in relation to The Vampire Diaries. She was commenting on the fact that it looked like it was going to be an interesting show, and the convo progressed from there. I'll just use first initials to tell who was talking. My friend is T, the annoying person is N. and I'll add my comments at the end.

T: The Vampire Diaries is a combination of like ten books, four shows and blood. should be an interesting first series!

N: sigh.. people need to get over vampires already..

T: i have a feeling they will be around for a long time N.

N: Something that doesn't exist can't really be around. On top of that, fads are never around for a long time. The essence of the fad is to come and go in waves of popularity, this one just so happens to be taking an annoyingly long time to keel over. Hopefully once it does it will stay down for a pleasantly long amount of time.

My comments: okay, so in reality, T pointed out to N most of what I'm going to say. But that's not the point. I'm like a die-hard vampire fan, and have been since as long as I can remember. So I need to vent my annoyance. . . .

First of all, vampires started out as myths/legends (blood drinking gods and demons) and folklore. It wasn't till much later, like the 1800s or so, that they were written about in any other sense. Yes, I'm talking about Dracula. Since then they have been "popular" off and on as a source of entertainment. But I wouldn't call vampires a fad. They are, and always will be, first and foremost folklore. While we have changed them almost completly from what the ancient civilizations would recognize as a vampire, they are still folklore. Our vampire stories are just our modernized version of folklore and legends.

Okay. I'm done now.

Lol. um, well, still in school. obviously. So I'm real busy right now. Tons of homework. Not much fun stuff. Homecoming's in a few weeks. Not sure if I'm gonna go or not. Depends if I get a dress of the dance. But I'm definatly going to the game. There's something cool about walking around the football field's outter track when it's dark outside. idk.

School

Well, today was the first day of school. I went to Ren Fest yesterday, then didn't sleep all last night. I haven't slept in over 48 hours, sadly. But today went reletively well. I wasn't tardy for a single class, didn't miss the bus, and didn't go into any wrong class rooms! I'm a paranoid freak at times. lol. And even better. I made some new friends. Everyone liked my outfit, even the Hollister weirdos. (I was wearing a black pleated skirt, black tights, combat boots, purple peasant top, and was carrying around my black Jack Skeleton head bag.) Okay, so I sound like a nerdy middle schooler with this post. but I don't really care. There are few things that scare me more than the first day of school. Seriously, they terrify me! I generally don't care what people think or say. But I don't like to look stupid or unprepared for something. I take pride in my school work. It's taken alot to get where I am. I went from being the kid who thought being smart was for losers (elemetary school) to being the kid who doubted her abilites so did try (early middle school) to the girl who everyone goes to for help with their homework. And I'm proud of that. I want to prove to all the other kids out there, that it's not cool to flunk school. and you can be completely awesome, artistic, and (insert subculture or stereotype or teen label) and still be ridiculously smart!!! I'm the most original girl in my grade (95% of them are very conservative or preppy. The class of 2011 seems to be about fitting in), an animal activist, and Eco girl, an artist, a writer, etc, etc, and yet, despite all of this, I'm proud to say I'm taking 3 college courses this semester, and 2 next semster! (it's dual credit). and next year, when, hopefully, I'll have a car or money for the bus or something, I'll be taking even more classes at the community college.



yeah, okay, i forgot where I was going with that. please forgive me. did I mention I haven't slept in over 48 hours?

rawr!

Okay, I'm officially not sure which is more sexy (in my twisted little mind): Vampires or Zombies. And to understand my delema, you have to have the right type of Zombies in mind. Not Zombies in the sense that their flesh is rotting off their faces and they're missing an arm. Zombies in the sense that they are a corpse, and they're walking around. they move kinda slow. they talk kinda slow. etc. don't ask y i think that might be sexy. I think I explained it once in another post. I'll link it from this one in a few minutes. but grrrr!!!!!!!!! Zombies are sooo not supposed to be sexy! but my twisted brain has to think they are. *smashes head against wall* I blame the Generation Dead series. and the band Zombie Girl doesn't help.


here's the link to the previous post I referenced: http://the-coffin-club.blogspot.com/2009/08/weird.html

Clearing something up

(this is rather long. but to understand, you'll have to read it all)

I got a disturbing (well, to me it is!) comment today. I was accused of trying to be "non-mainstream".

I just want everyone to know, I don't try to not be anything. And on that same note, I don't try to be anything. I am who I am. I'm not even sure I fit a stereotype anymore. I call myself Goth, because that's the subculture I identify with most. Yes, I wear black lipstick, dress in black, listen to Goth music, love vampires, etc, etc. But I'm more than that. If I were to have a label, I think it should be: Hippie in black lipstick. Yeah, kinda a contradiction, but that's me. I've tried to be "mainstream" but it didn't really work out. I'm not gonna sit around and pretend that I like polo shirts, pink, rap music, Zac Efron, etc, like all of the "mainstream" girls at my school. It's not me. When I was a little kid, I wanted to be Wednesday Adams. I'd rip off the heads of my barbies, and carry them around. Then my mom would throw them away because she got tired of explaining why they were headless to strangers at the store. In elementry school, I hung out with the popular girls. I did what they wanted. Wore what they said to. I even tried to hide the fact that my "designer" clothes were just look alikes from Walmart, Good Will, and garage sales. By middle school, I was tired of getting stabbed in the back. I was tired of being ordered around. I just wanted to be me. I ended up being something between Goth, Punk, and skater chic. A friend of mine once said this to me: "You act like a Goth, and you dress like a Punk." So my best friend began calling me Punk-Goth. And I stayed that way straight up through my Freshman year of Highschool. Now I'm a Junior. I don't really feel like I'm Punk-Goth anymore, though I still listen to "Punk" music, like Avril, Green Day, Simple Plan, and Good Charlotte. But I definatley feel more Goth. I've always adored steel-boned corsets. You know, those ones that actually make your waist super tiny. And I'm finally allowed to get one. I'm also really into black and red lace. I'd love to tote around a black lace parasol. But I can't really find one. I occasionally wear pink. I like to watch chic flicks, like Tristan and Isolde. I have the mandatory crush on Johnny Depp (I just bought a copy of Cry Baby last night!!!! *squeals* I haven't seen it in forever). But, I adore vampires, have this weird obssesion with death, practice a form of Wicca, am in the process of going Vegan, am an animal activist, and a self appointed "eco-girl". I'm also incredibly smart (I'm taking advanced classes), dream of getting into Harvard, and I want to be a Historian, whose specialty is in Ancient Greece, and also the Celts. Go figure. I'm just me. I've been just about every "label" there is. Now I'm probably a mix of them all, even a little prep. But guess what? I'm not trying to be. I just am. I'm just me. I've been called a poseur by just about everyone at one point or another, even by the people wearing a fashion trend I started. But I don't mind. In ten years they'll regret following all the fashion trends in the magazines religiously. They'll regret listening to music that they didn't like because it was "cool". But I won't. Because I haven't done that. I'm watching as my sister does, but I refuse to. My dad says that's how me and my sister are different: I'm a leader, she's a follower. I guess that's true to a point. She could be a leader if she wanted to. But she doesn't. She thinks if she doesn't she wont fit in. that she won't have any friends. But that's not true. I might not become Homecoming Queen, or Prom Queen, but I have tons of friends. I'm friends with preps, cheerleaders, jocks, geeks, "gangsters", the cool girls, emos, punks, skaters, scene kids, etc.

so yeah, I'm not mainstream. Not in the least. I wish I was. Trust me. It would be the coolest thing ever! If everyone was suddenly Vegan, wore black lipstick, and had my beliefs, as well as my clothing style, I'd love it. But sadly, that's not the way it is. I am what I am. I'll never change that. Maybe I won't be Goth my whole life. But I'll be okay with that too. I wear and listen to what I like. Take the classes that interest me. Hang with who I like to be around. And mostly just follow my heart.

The previous post was not me trying to show how "non-mainstream" I am. It was just me venting. I, along with all of my friends, found it unthinkable that the prep in question would say that I didn't think for myself. Mostly because he and I used to be friends. We used to laugh at people who dress and act the way he does. I DO NOT think all preps are like that. Nor do I think all preps are bad. Real preps are great! I'm friends with several of them. My best friend since the 1st grade is currently a prep. my own sister is a prep, though not really a genuine one. she, along with the boy who inspired me to write the previous post, are what I consider wannabe-preps. They want to be the stereotype, which, in my town, includes being a jerk to anyone who doesn't dress, act, and believe everything you do. Sad, but true.

So if anyone else thinks I'm trying to be "non-mainstream" I'm sorry. I don't know how else to prove I'm not. Words in a blog are a crummy way to prove anything, but it's about all I've got. And I'm also not bashing the person who gave me the comment I mentioned in the first paragraph. I just wanted to address this. Hope ya'll having a good end of summer/new school year!

The Reason Some Preps Annoy Me

I was accused of not thinking for myself by a prep! A guy who's "popular", a meat-eater, shops at Ambercrombie/Aeropostale/Hollister, is a jock, etc. accused me of not thinking for myself??? I have blue hair, hang with the stoners/artists, am more or less vegan, shop mostly at thrift stores and online goth stores, am an animal rights activist/artist/writer/Goth Pagan!!!! I can't get much more "thinking for myself."

=P (gotta read the funny part)

lol. Perhaps I should actually update this.

Not much going on right now. Just more "back-to-school" stuff. Which always sucks. I got my schedule Tuesday. I only know one of the teachers on my schedule, and he's supposed to be really cool. I don't have the math teacher I want, but I'll get over it. And I know atleast one person in all of my classes. :)

I started my other blog not to long ago. http://veganmayhem.blogspot.com it's about veganism/vegetarianism, animal rights, and going green! Check it out!

And last night, this "guy" I know made me, and several others look like complete idiots! Here's the story:

Okay, so, for the first time since middle school, I'm taking advanced classes (AP Macroeconomics, AP American Govt. and Politics, and Honors Chemistry). So I'm slightly nervous about being unprepared or looking stupid. Especially because the AP classes are the equivalent to a year long college class, and we're taking them in a single High School Semester! So anyway, I was chilling out on Facebook, just like everyone else at my Highschool (facebook seems to be the preference, even though we all have myspaces also), and this guy I know, who happens to be a real "know-it-all" who thinks he's smarter than everyone, including his teachers. For the record, he is smart, but I did better than him in our US history class the whole year. so whatever. as I was saying: He started bragging about how he was 2/3 done with his AP US History homework. well, lets just say it was almost 3am, and I was extremly tired. Somehow my brain confused Govt. with History and I started freaking out, because I didn't know about any homework. Well, lets just say I must not be the only one nervous, because like 3 other people started freaking out too. and this lasted for over half and hour. until a kid in the regular US govt. class pointed out that we had AP US Government, not AP US History. Do you have any idea how embarassing it is to be corrected by someone no where near as smart as you?

That's my funny story for the week. lol.

Check out this video: Cirque du Freak: The Vampires Assistant

Cirque du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant


I'm so excited to see this series become movies!! I've read like, the first four. Very fantastic books. And the movie looks like it's going to be really good. Very diff. from the books, but good. Definatly something I'd take my younger cousin to see!

Random Updates

so i dyed my hair blue yesterday, but it looks kinda greenish in some parts so I'm gonna re-blue it tonight. Last night I went to the County Fair with the family and my friend Mary'k. Looked at all the animals. OMG! I want a goat! seriously! they're so adorable! oooo or maybe a pig! my rents already said no about ducks and chickens. lol. we saw the piggys first. they're such cute animals. I petted on on the head, and the other one in the pen ran over to me to get some luvins too. so funny. sadly, she stepped on the other piggy to get closer. lol. at first i kinda thought she was gonna jump right out of the pen to me. so cute. I love oinkers. oooo, and i loved the moo moos too, but my mom said we don't have any place to put a cow seeing as we live in the middle of suburbia. sadly, most of the animals there had already been sold to Slaughters houses!!!!!!!!! can you believe it?? someone is gonna eat them cute moo moos and oinkers! I cried for them last night when i got home. If it weren't for the fact that there were like a thousand police around the fair I would have set them all free. Not sure where I'd put my rescued animals, but I'd find a place.

another thing that made me sooooo mad is there's an alligator wrestler there some place! I didn't see him cuz we went after dark, but if I had. . . I woulda given him a piece of my mine. seriously, I don't care how sharp gators teeth are, or that the might bite your arm off, they are beautiful animals and should just be LEFT ALONE by all us stupid humans! gods, we have to be the stupidest, meanest species on this planet. why is it that so many ppl seem compelled to be mean to the Goddess's creatures? I don't get it. But as of last night, I no longer identify with the human race. I'm something else. Don't got a name for it yet. I'll tell you when I do.

after seeing my animal friends we went and got these awesome sunglasses and got some food. I got a Fried Cheese on a Stick (yeah, neither vegan or healthy, but I ate it anyway.) my fave part has to be the "corn dog" breading and I got a giant lemonade to walk around with. Then we went and sat outside the Beer Tent cuz me and mary'k couldn't go in, but we wanted to hear the band. The last thing we did was go get some amazing henna tattoos, done by my Aunt Missy's friend Stephenie. We only get to see her like 2 times a year. at the county fair, then again at Ren Fest. me and MK got matching double bow and arrow tattoos. I absolutely love henna tattoos. I'm gonna get my own kit eventually. I'd be great at it. lol. well, gotta get dressed, get the mail and find some food that's edible. later!

Good Things Come To Those Who Wait!

Finally, after waiting forever and a day, my mom agreed to let me pierce my nose!! She agreed to let me pierce belly button forever ago, but i'm just waiting on my bonehead cousin, 'cause he's a professional piercer. and of course my mom finally bought my blue hair dye. gonna have awesome hair and some awesome piercing for when i go back to school. and i'm changing my "style" of goth. I'm gonna be more fem/corprate goth. wearing button up shirts and skirts. I'm just all around excited to go back to school and just flaunt myself. sounds hoeish, but i don't care.

B2S

B2S-- okay, now you think I'm going crazy. lol. I'm not, don't worry. It stands for Back 2 School. =P see how clever I am? lmao.


Okay, anyway. Back on subject. Yup, it's that time again. Going to buy all those crappy school supplies you'd rather not touch, but your teachers say it's cruical that you have them. whatever. And who doesn't love being dragged to the mall by your Nana because she says you have to look "nice" because you go to the same school she and your Papa and a whole strew of your cousins and aunts and uncles went to. You gotta "represent the family." ick. atleast she's starting to let me where plack and skulls and coffins with out choking on her dinner. lol. and I'm taking my aunt and mom with me. They like my fashion sense. On me anyway. I hate trying on clothes though. It always messes up my hair royally. Like the static turns my hair into an afro i swear. And of course, next week I have to get my school pics taken. Yippee! Not. But atleast it means my mom has to stop complaining and actually get my hair dyed. I'm going pitch black with icy blue streaks. It's gonna look "Witchy." And of course, picture day means going to get my class schedule, and my crummy text books. And also, unfortunatley, brush elbows with the preps.

Now don't get me wrong, some preps are wonderful people. And I actually go to one of the most open minded, friendly schools on the planet. But me and some of the "popular" kids don't really see eye to eye. It's grudges being held from middle school. No, I'm not even kidding. I broke Mr. Popular's heart. And now he and his "posee" hate me. Go figure.

Any way, gotta go get some "shopping" done. If I survive, I'll write more in a day or so.

weird

It's so bizarre. After reading Generation Dead, I'm now, ever so slightly, obsessed with the differently biotic. No, I'm not kidding. It makes no sense. I mean, my vampire obsession could be rationalized.

Vampires are sexy. They're immortal. They drink blood. And if you get on their good side, they can make you that way too.

But what do Zombies have to offer? They're dead. That's it. They move slowly. Talk slowly. And though they may be immortal, they can't make anybody else immortal. Not to mention their eyes are lifeless, and their skin is waxy and blue toned. They are literally a walking corpse. Except they can talk. and think. But there's nothing inherently attractive about them. Yet I can't stop thinking about them. Well, one differently biotic in particular. Tommy Williams (check him out http://www.mysocalledundeath.com).

I can't get the dang Zombie out of my head. It's crazy. Not only is he a Zombie, he's a fictional Zombie. *bangs head agains keyboard*

Does anyone have any reasons for or against Zombie human relationships?

I'm talking in a very fiction situation, obviously. But this whole bizarre obsession has called up a story idea in me. And it's going to be a 'love story' of sorts. And yes, our lovely couple will be a Zombie and a Human. And I'm not sure if this will actually end up being a true love story. I mean, I've got a Zombie in it! Somebody's gotta get murdered. and some other people will most likely need to "disappear". I'm better at the horror aspect of stories than the love aspect.

I'm also working on the sequel to Finding Sky. If anyone would actually like a copy of F.S., let me know. I'm trying to find a way to sell it. and to publish it! lol. Maybe I'll have it be an ebook? That would be interesting. we'll see what ends up happening. :)

"Because I'm Awesome" -- The Dollyrot

hahaha i love this song. I think it's gonna be my new theme song. lmao. In case anyone's wondering, I'm totally putting together a "soundtrack" for my life. lol. It's gonna be called "Soundtrack to My Suicide" lmao. Ugh. I'm really just bored right now. I feel like going to do some random sh*t on my website (www.monstergrrl.webs.com). so maybe i will. check it out! oh, and i've really decided that I like chick lead punk bands the best. with the exception of Green Day.
oh, and just so people know, thanks to a book called Generation Dead I'm now somewhat obsessed with zombies, err, i mean, differently biotic people. lol.

Lyrics:

Uh huh!

I got a new style, uh oh.
And I'm walkin' right down your street.
I'm on your speed dial, you know.
The one everyone wants to meet!
I always tell you how cool your dress
It's 'cause I'm fashionably socialized
You're smarter, better
No! The best!
Just look at me.

I'm a leader.
I'm a winner
And I'm cleaner
'Cause I'm awesome.
I don't need you
'Cause I'm neato
And I beat you
'Cause I'm awesome!
That's right!

They say I'm gifted, uh huh.
Well, I'm a certified prodigy
I'm gonna own you, uh huh
I'm gonna bring you to your knees.
I always tell you how smart you are.
It's 'cause my brain is really supersized
You're an academic superstar.
Just look at me!

I'm a leader.
I'm a winner.
And I'm cleaner.
'Cause I'm awesome.
I don't need you
'Cause I'm neato.
And I beat you
'Cause I'm awesome!
That's right!

Got a career plan, uh huh.
Gonna make lots of money.
And bought a self tan, uh huh.
Don't I look healthy?

I always tell you how great you smell.
It's 'cause I'm naturally deodorized.
You're stronger, faster, and can spell.
Just look at me!

[chorus 2x]

I don't need you
'Cause I'm awesome.

Uh huh!

Bad Moon Rising Review *spoilers*

OMG! I finished reading it this morning. The 'it' in question being Bad Moon Rising by Sherrilyn Kenyon. It was released August 4th and is the most recent addition to the Dark-Hunters series. Let's just make this clear, my review is neither unbiased or impartial. After being a HUGE fan of the series for the past 5 years of my life, I think of the characters as both real people and as my friends/family. Yes, I'm slowly going insane. I whole heartedly blame this series; they're that good!

But on to the review:
Honestly, I'm not sure if I loved it, or hated it. After I finished reading it, I spent a good hour crying over characters lost. I swore (as me, and several other fans, had already been asured that atleast one major character would die) that aslong as Kyle, Simi, Acheron, and Nick were all still breathing after I'd finished the book, I would be fine. But I was wrong. I am soooo not fine. Losing Nicolette and Aubert (Mama Lo and Papa Bear) Peltier is surprisingly hard. But obviously that's not the only thing to happen in the book, nor is it the major event. The book over all was extremly well written and kept me on my seat, even though, from previous books, I knew several of the events that it would contain. It also answered several questions about the bears that had been stacking up. Kyle is an Aristos! of course several fans had already guessed that by now. But few of us had even thought that Aimee was an Arcadian, let alone an Aristos. And that many of the other bears were Arcadians as well, totally blew my mind. I had to write it down (with my new Acheron pen =D) so that I would know, a week from now, that I hadn't made that up. Of course I'm super happy that Aimee and Fang are mates. I hope they'll be able to have children. Being from to different species (Fang-Katagaria wolf, Aimee-Arcadian Bear) that's always the question. And I'm really glad Vane had the common sense not to hand over his brother to Savitar, even though in the end Sav was really trying to help. If the wolf had turned over his brother, I'd have had to kill him. But in the end, most things were good. except for the lost of the Peltier matriarch and patriarch. It was a happy ending tainted with mourning.

The only questions the book has left me with are:
*What's going to happen now that Sanctuary is no longer a limani?
*What's gonna happen to Sanctuary without Mama Lo and Papa Bear?
*Will Fang and Aimee have children?
*What's going to happen now that people are starting to discover that Daimons have found a way to walk in daylight?


~*Sanctuary Forever*~

yay!

whoot! got my *signed* copy of BMR today! along with my oh so wonderful package from Mighty Barnacle. gotta love that place. #1 reason i love ordering from MB: the extras. got a thousand and one book marks, stickers, and my fave, an Acheron temp tattoo.

my artwork

okay, so i finally got around to posting some of my artwork on Deviant art. here's the link to my profile: http://monster-grrl.deviantart.com/ i'll have more stuff soon. just gotta get it uploaded :)

Rasputina's High on Life

omigod! i'm now obsessed with this song. it's sooooo stuck in my head. and the pic of the guy it brings to mind is stuck in my head. Mary'k (if u read this), i bet you can guess who it reminds me of. he happens to be a certain married of ours. :D

Rasputina High on Life Lyrics:
I never want to be seen as cheap
I saw the tears in his eyes and I
thought, "That's sweet."
I tried on all of my little jokes,
I muscle in, throw it in, just to see if it floats
Not many people have the balls of I
to take the bull by the horns and make it mine, all mine

He was it, he was really hot shit
He was tripping, he was ripped and he was high on life

He was it, he was really hot,
He was tripping, he was drifting, he was high
He was really nice

He smelled like propane and butterscotch
He kept his eyes on me 'cuz he liked to watch me
Tear up bedsheets to bandage him
He had been in a fight, but he did not win
I don't think we brought the money up,
It was a gas, oh we just laughed, this boy could not shut up

He was it, he was really hot shit
He was tripping, he was ripped and he was high on life

He was it, he was really hot shit
He was tripping, he was ripped and he was high on life (repeat)

He was it, he was really hot shit
He was tripping, he was ripped and he was high on life ( x4 )
He was tripping, he was drifting, he was high
He was really nice

He was it, he was really hot shit
He was tripping, he was ripped and he was high on life (repeat)

wow. i'm horrible about posting. apparently. lol. i haven't posted in a solid week. nothing really happening around here. nothing fun ever really does till August. renissance festival, county fair, back-to-school shopping spree at the mall. fun times are only a few weeks away. of course, anyone into magick knows that Lughnasadh (lammas) kicks off the awesome month of august. of course, i'm behind on ritual writing to. well, that's all i have time for i guess. hope everyone's having a good summer!


**Updates**

• the sherrilyn kenyon site is finally launched. you can check it out at http://www.sherrilynkenyon.com
• my new website www.monstergrrl.webs.com is up and running, so don't use the old freewebs.com/alannaspage one. i'll be deleting it soon.

some stuff u should watch

Here's a few videos from Peta2.com. and guess what. the people saying the important things are people in bands. cool bands. these people are famous. so maybe you should take a few minutes and listen up.






Get free stickers at peta2.com








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and there is some swearing in this one. thought i'd let u no.





Get free stickers at peta2.com

hmmmm. . . i thought i posted yesterday. must have dreamed it. lol. ugh. I only have about two topics on my mind right now: Harry Potter and Dark-Hunters.

Harry Potter: I saw Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince on Wednesday. It's so amazing. I was very disapointed with Goblet of Fire and Order of the Phoenix. But this one was amazing. Better even than Prisoner of Azkaban. And that was my fave. It had the same quality as the first two movie, but the visual appeal of Prisoner of Azkaban. It was great. I can't wait to see it again. I'm going to see it with the fam tomorrow. :D It's got me so in the Potterworld mood that I'm rereading the series for the first time since Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows came out a few years ago.


Dark-Hunters: Let me just say, though it is considered a romance series, it is a fantastic series if you have any interest in Vampire books. Even guys love the series as the love and intimate scenes really aren't even needed for the story line. But us girls tend to like them :) but then again, we also love the wicked fight scenes. The series site is http://www.dark-hunter.com/ and the author site is http://www.sherrilynkenyon.com/ and the new site (find it via the sherrilyn link) should be up by sunday night so i'm psyched! They've got it on a test server right now, and it's awesome. Here's a link to the test server site so you can see for yourself: http://s15340456.onlinehome-server.com/index.php sadly, it's not letting people register right now, but that should change soon. Atleast I hope, because once you register, you can befriend characters and other fans, and there's some pages you have to be logged in to see. It's like myspace for Kenyon Minions!!!! (fyi: kenyon minion is the name for sherrilyn kenyon and dark-hunter fans. I am a proud Minion). When the site is officially launched, I'll let ya'll know. But i give it two thumbs up!




well, I'll be back tomorrow with any updates. l8er!

:(

Back a day early from camping. My best friend isn't allowed to hang out at my house anymore 'cause my mom and his dad got in an argument. It's amazing how with one sentence your whole world can get flipped upside down.

camping

Whoo! Going camping for the weekend! I'll be back Monday to tell all the silly stories.

been tweeting on twitter a bit today. lol. gotta say here what i said last on twitter. it makes me laugh for some reason:

"The reason I like twitter: it's like myspace, except you feel like the famous people you're friends with are acctually talking to YOU. rotfl"

you can tweet with me too at: http://twitter.com/ashleyhowd

yup. then you get the minute by minute updates on my boring life. lol. heck, check out my amazing list of famous friend while you're at it. and all of mine are the real person! (i double and triple check wit other celebs sometimes). lol. oooooo Ellen Schreiber should totally get a twitter. hmmm. . . but then she should also get a blogger for that matter. maybe I'll tell her that. heck, two of my questions actually made it into the FAQs on her site. and i asked her if it was cuz of me and my friends. and she said yup. rotflmao. anyway, she only has myspace and live journal.

I has livejournal too. URL here: http://punkwitch13.livejournal.com/

sadly, i think i almost like my livejournal blog better, cuz you get to say what music ur listening too. and i listen to some awesome stuff. lol.

ugh. i'm really bored right now if you can't tell. I'm working on some of my websites right now. I let them go so long. here's the link to my author site if yall's interested: http://www.freewebs.com/bradhadairsworld/index.htm

don't worry. name sounds lame. but i's not using that as my pen name no more. it's also the official site of The Tepes Chronicles. and when that's finally published, ya'll get to say you were the first to know about it. with the exception of the people who helped me with it. the character Oktober is inspired by my best friend. she also gave me a death threat to finish the story. it went something like "I wanna see this whole notebook filled with this story. If not, ur soooo dead." okay, maybe i need to rethink my best friends. they're violent! rotfl.

My personal website, on the other hand, kinda sux. but i have my download's page on there, and i'm going to atleast work on that before I go to bed so it'll be nice again. lol. here's the link for that: http://www.freewebs.com/alannaspage/downloads.htm

Other websites by me you might find interesting:
www.sistersofthedark.webs.com (my daughters of the moon fansite)
www.practical-magick.webs.com (okay, i realize there's not alot on this one, but there will be by the end of the week.)


well, i gotta go. I'll talk to you fine peoples later.
~* )O( *~

quick post

okay, today is a super busy day. I'm redecorating (spelling?) my room and working on my websited. It's a fan site for two of Lynne Ewing's serieses: Daughters of the Moon and Sons of the Dark. I completely recommend both series'. They're simply amazing. the URL for my site is www.freewebs.com/sistersoftenight you can head over there and see a bit of what the books are about, but be forewarned, there are spoilers on the site.

Also, I'm feeling creative today. So if you need a myspace layout or banner or desktop wallpaper or something, let me know.

later

happy independence day U.S.A.

not much to say. going to see some amazin fireworks tomorrow in Bay City, MI. l8er!

fun, fun, fun

okay, so summer life has finally started up. I've been spending all day, everyday, with my friends. Just hanging out. But that also means I don't have much computer time. So I won't be blogging quite as much, but I'll try to post something at least every few days. I might only have like, 3 people that read it, but it's better than nothing. Well, gotta go. The guys just showed up. later!

txt message.

k, so i just got this txt from my friend. it was one of those forwards. it's kinda really mean. but funny at the same time. it's one of those, you feel bad for laughing things. but here's what the txt said:


Farrah Fawcett got to heaven and God granted her one wish. She wished for all the children to be safe, so God killed Michael Jackson!!


I admitt it is really awful, but totally funny. Thought I'd share it. don't get too mad at me.

:)

Not much going on in my dull little part of the world. Working on some artsy projects. swimming in my pool, cuz it's finally up. gonna delete some of my old websites so i can devote all my time to my new ones. etc. etc. mostly just clearing out old crap from my life.

Have you ever noticed how all the clutter that ends up surrounding us kinda just drags you down? well i spend my summers getting rid of it, and changing myself for the better. last year i mostly worked on my appearance. okay, yeah, i'm a teenage girl and i do that all the time, but last summer i did some drastic stuff. like i tattooed a moon on my ankle. yup. and pierced my navel. yeah, i know how dangerous doing that stuff on my own is, but i honestly took every precaution possible. i also gave myself an awesome haircut and dyed it purple.

Well, this summer's gonna be different. Yeah, of course, I'll still work on my outer apperance (I'm planning on piercing my nose and shedding some pounds), but i'm going to be spending much more time working on the inner me. My spiritual self. I'm going to be spending alot of time meditating, fasting, and playing with the faeries!

But of course, I have to get rid of all the stuff that's holding me back before i can do that. and this year, my whole family's pitching in! We're completly revamping our yard. getting rid of all the junk from when me and my sister were little (like the sandbox that is home to lots of pincher bugs) and filling our garden with plants for lots of yummy stuff. Then we're gonna work on the inside of our house. maybe add a new bathroom. knock a wall out and make my room bigger. not sure yet. then, after all that chaos, i'll finally be able to settle down. find out who i am. and maybe get rid of these freakin' nightmares that won't leave me alone!

Oh, and on the plus side, even though i'm totally getting forced to help my rents with the yard and house work, my dad said that for all my help, he's gonna buy this fantasmical corset i've been eyeing on http://www.heavyred.com/ and let me buy more clothes. he suggests i use it for "summer clothes" but i'm totally gonna use it for school clothes. I'm gonna be a Junior this year, an upper classman. And I've totally gotta show all those little fressies and sophomores who rules the school. (It totally helps to be friends with all the seniors. lol. ).

Okay, so I think I've written enough for awhile. I'm in a real writing kick right now.
Later.

official

micheal jackson it dead. yup, it's official. not really sad. he's a scary dude. i am sad that Farrah Fawcett, but not so much about MJ.

yes!

Summer is finally starting to get good. My sister should be coming over this weekend to spend the rest of the summer with me. She's my best friend so I totally can't wait for her to get here. and my swimming pool is up! yay! although, my youngest sister and my mom forgot to smooth out the bottom of the pool, so it's nowhere near as high as it's supposed to be. it's still better than nothing. and i've been hanging with friends constently. rereading my favorite books like crazy. have to be reading book 3 of the Daughters of the Moon series for 4th of July. it's practically tradition for me to be reading that on the way to Bay City. and i'm also re reading the Vampire Kisses series, but i'm doing something new. trying to imagine what a movie for each book would look like. of course, i've got myself playing Raven in my head. lol. well, gotta go. I'm RPGing with my friend. later!

bored

well, everyone is out of town, or too busy to hang with me, so i'm bored. understandably. not much going on. yesterday was Midsummer. totally cool. it's officially summer now. maybe my dad will fix our pool now.

Birthday shout out to Ash: Happy B-day dude!

Oh! and i saw preview's for a new show. looked totally awesome. It's called Vampire Diaries (yes, it's based off of the books). Here's a link to the extended preview: http://cwtv.com/cw-video/more-video/short/?play=466-5806

and the facebook fanpage: http://www.facebook.com/thevampirediaries

and of course, when i watch it (it premires this fall) I'll be sure to write a review. I actually read the books it's based on, but i promise not to let that sway my opinion of the series.

well gtg. later.

ugh.

my internet was off for like 4 days. sooo not cool. hmmm. . . . what all do i need to update on? oh yeah:

my cousin just flew back to Iraq yesterday :(
my dad's almost got our swimming pool up and running.
and all the cool TV shows are starting up this week and next. ok. not really. but whatchable shows will be back. like The Secret Life Of The American Teenager starts up Monday. and that's on okay show. not always realistic, but cool. And 10 Things I Hate About You (yep, it's based on the movie) is also gonna starts soon. so I guess things will be better then.

hoping my dad gets AC installed soon. cuz my house is waaaay to hot. lol. I'm totally gearing up for my family's annual 4th of July trip. We go to Baycity. every year to watch this giaganitic fire works display. gonna be fun. I always meet some cool people there.

Well, gtg. Watching Grease!

ick

why does it have to be so hot in the summer? yeah, i get that most people like the heat, but i kinda hate it. i'm much more of an autumn kinda girl. there's just this feeling in the air during the fall that i live for. i spend the whole year waiting for autumn. thank the gods its only a season away. yeah, that means school. but school isn't so bad i suppose. my friends are there. even though most of my classes this year are gonna suck. Junior year is the hardest. but the sooner i get the stupid junior year over the sooner i get to my fantabulous senior year.

its like 90 degrees outside and my dad hasn't got our pool up yet. *bangs head on keyboard* this is gonna be one long ass summer.

cool quote

"There is no such thing as 'part Cherokee.' Either you're Cherokee or you're not. It isn't the quantity of Cherokee blood in your veins that is important, but the quality of it...your pride in it. I have seen full-bloods who have virtually no idea of the great legacy entrusted to their care. Yet, I have seen people with as little as 1/500th blood quantum who inspire the spirits of their ancestors because they make being Cherokee a proud part of a their everyday life." Jim Pell, Principal Chief of the North Alabama Cherokee Tribe

I absolutely love this quote. Now I know why my mom and grandmother both refer to themselves as cherokee, instead of part cherokee.

SUMMER!!!

whoo! it is the first day of summer break. yay!

almost summer

It's the last week of school, and i'm stuck studying about those nasty things you call Finals. 4 down, 2 to go.

home at last

whew. finally home. i hated not having internet access on my laptop. but now i'm back. can keep posting in my blog, to myself. lol. we'll, it's not like i really have an audience. (and if i do they are really quiet) so i'm more or less just talking to myself. but i'm fine with that. one of my friends's shrink told him that talking to yourself (within reason) is acctually mentally healthy. it can be a way of venting. so here i am. talking to myself. later.

one of those days

ugh. i could actually say it's been one of those weeks. but then i remembered that there's still 4 days to go. unfortunately i'm staying with my grams this week, so i don't have my fancy wireless internet like usual. so i can only post during the hour and a half between when i get home from school and when she picks me up. not really much to say. don't really feel like being a downer to anyone. my friend has a court case tomorrow and to say i'm worried of the results is an understatement.

where did the weekend go?

it's monday again in roughly an hour. can you believe it? ugh. no. i want it to be saturday again. i am sooooo not ready to face the preps tomorrow. not ready to face teachers either. sadly, i have to go, i have a major book project due. luckily, it's on Royal Blood, so i know the information like the back of my hand. and what makes tomorrow even worse, as soon as i get home, i have to pack. i'm staying with my grams for a week. and yet i still have to go to school. well, guess that's all for tonight. later.

some books you just have to check out

okay, okay, i said i was going to bed. yeah right. lol. anyway, i'm reading this really awesome book series right now. It's the Blood Coven series by Mari Mancusi. there's currently 3 books, but i believe the next one comes out sometime this fall. i'm adding the book covers so you know what to look for. sorry. they're a bit big. lol.

feels like summer.

*sighs* i still have two weeks left of school, but it feels like summer already. i don't know about you guys, but my homework still seems blank. my will power is pretty much shot. it's just too nice outside to stay in my room doing homework. hanging out under this huge tree in my backyard with my sketchbook is so much more fun. ugh. i should be studying right now. i have finals in about a week. oh well. they're only 20% of my semester grade. nothing serious right? lol. well, i'm uber tired. didn't get to bed till almost 10 o'clock this morning. and what do you know, it's already midnight. i've only been up about 12 hours. but my dad's out of town so my mom made some awesome food. having a full stomach makes me tired.

First Post

hmmmm. . . what to say, what to say. . . well, it's the first post in the blog. lol. gave up on my livejournal blog. so I'm gonna give this one a try. hopefully everything works out. I love blogging, but only when people actually read it and comment. other wise, no point in posting. lol. hmmmm. . . . well, i'm off to bed. i've been up since 8:30am yesterday. that's 24 hours in about 10 minutes. Later.