I’m not even sure if this is my life anymore. I have no control what so ever in it. I only have the power to watch my world fall apart. The very ground beneath my feet is falling in! All communication has failed. My own relationship makes no sense. I have no idea why my boyfriend is even dating me. I don’t know what he’s getting out of this relationship. Even if it was just for sex it wouldn’t make sense, he has beautiful girls falling all over him wherever he goes! And I’m not even good looking. I’m fat, ugly, and acne ridden. So what the fuck??? He’s never held my hand. Never kissed me. Never hugged me. Yet he tells his family I’m his girlfriend. I’ve no idea if he’s told his friends I’m dating him. I wouldn’t if I was him. But on the other hand, he’s already told his “son” about me, then he told me I’m the mother! He beats the crap out of my sisters boyfriend for accidentally kicking me. And when this boy got accused of making a move on me, the poor kid got spazzed on by my boyfriend! I feel like we’re just going through the motion. That “girlfriend” is just a meaningless title. But what do I do? I care more about this guy than almost any other guy I’ve gone out with before. I don’t want to loose him. But I have this sick feeling in my stomach because I think my sister and her boyfriend (who’s best friend with mine) forced my boyfriend into this. Yes, I said it. I think my boyfriend didn’t get a choice in dating me! On top of all this, my parents’ marriage problems are getting blamed on the poor guy, so I’m pretty sure he’s not allowed over anymore. And now he’s grounded. I’m not even sure if he has my phone number because he’s at my house so much usually I’ve never had to call him! The amount of chaos that can happen in one day is fucking insane!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
An Idea
I've talked a bit about Finding Sky, my currently unpuplished novel (because publishers don't seem to think teens can write interesting enough novels despite the rise is successful teen authors. go figure) on here before. Most recently with the idea of making it available to the public by christmas. Well that was a bust because it's in the middle of some truly amazing editing, which may take awhile, because I am, for the moment, also working on the sequel along with 2 other novels. I honestly have more stories going on in my head than I have started on paper, and anyone whose ever seen my writing folder will tell you that's saying something. (it's a portable file folder, litterly stuffed with story ideas, half written novels, and one page synopsises). My mind is ever busy! Anywho, I've recently gotten an idea from a friend, it's totally inspired by a blog she's started. And I want to do something similar, but I'm not sure if I want to do in respect to Schuyler, Alanna, and the rest of the gang, or a whole new story line! Here's the link to my friends blog if you want to see what she's done: http://theforgottengoddess.blogspot.com/
and Here's a link to the official Finding Sky homepage if you need a refresher of the story's fundamentals: http://www.freewebs.com/bradhadairsworld/thetepeschronicles.htm
And for those wondering about when Finding Sky will become available, it should be available to the public sometime this summer. The keyword being should. I'm actually hoping to find a publisher that will take it, so I need to finish the new manuscript! (Which is really much better than the original, and the sequel, when it's finished, will literally blow everyone away.)
Friday, January 1, 2010
Love Bites by Ellen Shreiber
As some of you many know, Ellen Shreiber's teen series, Vampire Kisses, is one of my faves. I have all the books, and when they came out with new covers last spring, I bought them all again so I could have a matching set! Anywho, the new book will be out on May 18th, so to celebrate the New Year, here's the cover and synopsis:
"As a mortal girl dating a vampire, Raven knows that love isn't always easy. Now that Alexander's parents have returned to Romania, Raven and her dreamy vampire boyfriend are happy to resume to their cryptic romance.
But soon another visitor comes knocking: Sebastian, Alexander's best friend, arrives for a stay at the mansion. At first Raven is wary, and then thrilled - this is the perfect chance to learn more about her darkly handsome boyfriend and his past. Raven has been wondering whether Alexander will ever biter her and make their love immortal, and Sebastian could be her guide to the love habits of Alexander and his kind. But when Sebastian falls for a particular Dullsvillian, will another mortal beat Raven to the bite?"
To find out more about the series, check out Ellen's wonderful website:
http://www.ellenschreiber.com/ or her myspace: http://www.myspace.com/ellenschreiber
Or hit up Raven's RPG page: http://www.myspace.com/ravensterling
