Friendship Is Golden!

Not much has really been happening here in Dullsville. Last Tuesday was Mabon, which was simply amazing. I spent the whole day in celebration of the harvest, one of my friends even came over to help celebrate. Friday was my town's homecoming, which kicked ass! My school always has a half day for Homecoming, and the majority of our time in school is spent at something we call interclass games. which is always hilarious. Kinda sad that they got rid of the pie eating contest. anyway. . . afterwards, me and 3 of my best friends headed down town to watch the parade in support of how many of our friends happend to be in it. We then headed out to the football game. I didn't even watch the game, I mean, I know we won (the score was like 32 to 17 or something like that), but that's about it. I spent most of my night by the pizza stand talking to my friend who was working it. and then this little group of our friends just showed up. I was so full of energy when I got home that I couldn't sleep! It's a good thing I didn't go to the dance, I crashed early the next night. oh, and my cat's in heat for the first time. which is definatly interesting. she's uber whiny, and wants people to cuddle her constantly. she could care less out the male cats out the window. she just wants to cuddle with everyone. all. the. time. which is getting on my nerves a bit.

But on the brightside, now, out of nowhere, a bunch of my old friends are popping up. And by old friends I mean the people I hung out with in like the 5th grade and stuff. It's amazing! My two all time best friends (there's a pic of the three of us still hanging above my bed) have both talked to me in the past 2 days. Z's been my BFF since the 3rd grade, at one time we were so close that the only thing that kept people from asking if we were sisters was our difference in skin color. But after she moved we lost touch. Thank the gods for facebook, that's how we got back in touch! and J, well, he's another story. He was my first love, and I swear he's my soul mate. we've been BFFs since the first grade. I've helped him move out of his house. I almost stayed the night at his house a few times. our parents were friends. I was even friends with his older sister. we did everything together, and were inseparable for almost 7 years of our life. and unlike with Z, I never really lost touch with him. when he first moved, we'd call eachother at least once a month, usually more, then we kinda stopped. and mostly use myspace to keep in touch. but the greatest part of hearing from the 2 of them is that the contacted me instead of the other way around, and just when I was thinking of them most. It's almost like we're all on the same wave length at the moment!

well, i'm gonna fall asleep. later!

WTF?????

Avril Lavigne and her husband are getting separated!!! She posted it in her blog no more than 2 hours ago. I honestly can't believe it. they've been dating since she was 19. friends since she was 17. I thought they would actually make it, unlike all the other celeb couples out there. I guess being a rocker doesn't change any of that shit. I'm glad they'll continue to be friends though, because they make some awesome music together.

busy busy busy :(

The one thing I didn't miss about school was the work! I love school, don't get me wrong. And I'm good at it. But I actually sat down the other night and figured out exactly how much time in the day a highschool student has to themselves. well, you spend 8 hours in school, and teenagers are supposed to sleep 9 hours. Give yourself an hour each for dinner, breakfast/getting ready in the morning, and bathing. That leaves us teens with 4 hours to do homework and relax. I don't know about you, but I spend more than 4 hours on homework everynight. The only thing we can really skimp on is sleep. So teens rarely ever get the amount of sleep we actually need. And adults wonder why teenagers are so grumpy all the time.

With that said, I have know idea how I found a few minutes to type this. I just finished typing up a 3 page American Lit essay, and am about to start on a whole chapters worth of Algebra II homework. and then, if I somehow manage to finish that before midnight, I have to chapters worth of AP Economics notes to copy.

To put me further on edge, I can't do homework on the weekends because I'm at Ren Fest. And next Tuesday I won't even be at school because I'll be off for religious observance as it's Mabon (the Autumn Equinox).

Well, I guess that really is the end of my free time. Hopefully I'll be able to still blog more than once a week!

The Vampire Diaries Review, and something I saw that annoys me. . .

Okay, not alot of time here, so I'll take care of this first. The Vampire Diaries premired tonight on the CW (as well as the new season of Supernatural), and is based on a book series that I'm a fan of. While there are many differences from the book, the show was extremly good at keeping the overall feeling of the story intact (which to me, is almost more important that getting all the details right). The acting was good (did any one notice who plays the brothers? :D ), and on top of all that, the music played throughout the show was amazing. I don't know about you, but if a show has good music in it, I'm more likely to watch it (honestly, there are shows I've watched solely for the music, anyway. . ).

Sorry, it's kinda dry. Maybe I'll give another review at the end of the season.

Now, on to what annoyed me immensly (spelling?) today. It was a convo on facebook that my friend was having in relation to The Vampire Diaries. She was commenting on the fact that it looked like it was going to be an interesting show, and the convo progressed from there. I'll just use first initials to tell who was talking. My friend is T, the annoying person is N. and I'll add my comments at the end.

T: The Vampire Diaries is a combination of like ten books, four shows and blood. should be an interesting first series!

N: sigh.. people need to get over vampires already..

T: i have a feeling they will be around for a long time N.

N: Something that doesn't exist can't really be around. On top of that, fads are never around for a long time. The essence of the fad is to come and go in waves of popularity, this one just so happens to be taking an annoyingly long time to keel over. Hopefully once it does it will stay down for a pleasantly long amount of time.

My comments: okay, so in reality, T pointed out to N most of what I'm going to say. But that's not the point. I'm like a die-hard vampire fan, and have been since as long as I can remember. So I need to vent my annoyance. . . .

First of all, vampires started out as myths/legends (blood drinking gods and demons) and folklore. It wasn't till much later, like the 1800s or so, that they were written about in any other sense. Yes, I'm talking about Dracula. Since then they have been "popular" off and on as a source of entertainment. But I wouldn't call vampires a fad. They are, and always will be, first and foremost folklore. While we have changed them almost completly from what the ancient civilizations would recognize as a vampire, they are still folklore. Our vampire stories are just our modernized version of folklore and legends.

Okay. I'm done now.

Lol. um, well, still in school. obviously. So I'm real busy right now. Tons of homework. Not much fun stuff. Homecoming's in a few weeks. Not sure if I'm gonna go or not. Depends if I get a dress of the dance. But I'm definatly going to the game. There's something cool about walking around the football field's outter track when it's dark outside. idk.

School

Well, today was the first day of school. I went to Ren Fest yesterday, then didn't sleep all last night. I haven't slept in over 48 hours, sadly. But today went reletively well. I wasn't tardy for a single class, didn't miss the bus, and didn't go into any wrong class rooms! I'm a paranoid freak at times. lol. And even better. I made some new friends. Everyone liked my outfit, even the Hollister weirdos. (I was wearing a black pleated skirt, black tights, combat boots, purple peasant top, and was carrying around my black Jack Skeleton head bag.) Okay, so I sound like a nerdy middle schooler with this post. but I don't really care. There are few things that scare me more than the first day of school. Seriously, they terrify me! I generally don't care what people think or say. But I don't like to look stupid or unprepared for something. I take pride in my school work. It's taken alot to get where I am. I went from being the kid who thought being smart was for losers (elemetary school) to being the kid who doubted her abilites so did try (early middle school) to the girl who everyone goes to for help with their homework. And I'm proud of that. I want to prove to all the other kids out there, that it's not cool to flunk school. and you can be completely awesome, artistic, and (insert subculture or stereotype or teen label) and still be ridiculously smart!!! I'm the most original girl in my grade (95% of them are very conservative or preppy. The class of 2011 seems to be about fitting in), an animal activist, and Eco girl, an artist, a writer, etc, etc, and yet, despite all of this, I'm proud to say I'm taking 3 college courses this semester, and 2 next semster! (it's dual credit). and next year, when, hopefully, I'll have a car or money for the bus or something, I'll be taking even more classes at the community college.



yeah, okay, i forgot where I was going with that. please forgive me. did I mention I haven't slept in over 48 hours?

rawr!

Okay, I'm officially not sure which is more sexy (in my twisted little mind): Vampires or Zombies. And to understand my delema, you have to have the right type of Zombies in mind. Not Zombies in the sense that their flesh is rotting off their faces and they're missing an arm. Zombies in the sense that they are a corpse, and they're walking around. they move kinda slow. they talk kinda slow. etc. don't ask y i think that might be sexy. I think I explained it once in another post. I'll link it from this one in a few minutes. but grrrr!!!!!!!!! Zombies are sooo not supposed to be sexy! but my twisted brain has to think they are. *smashes head against wall* I blame the Generation Dead series. and the band Zombie Girl doesn't help.


here's the link to the previous post I referenced: http://the-coffin-club.blogspot.com/2009/08/weird.html

Clearing something up

(this is rather long. but to understand, you'll have to read it all)

I got a disturbing (well, to me it is!) comment today. I was accused of trying to be "non-mainstream".

I just want everyone to know, I don't try to not be anything. And on that same note, I don't try to be anything. I am who I am. I'm not even sure I fit a stereotype anymore. I call myself Goth, because that's the subculture I identify with most. Yes, I wear black lipstick, dress in black, listen to Goth music, love vampires, etc, etc. But I'm more than that. If I were to have a label, I think it should be: Hippie in black lipstick. Yeah, kinda a contradiction, but that's me. I've tried to be "mainstream" but it didn't really work out. I'm not gonna sit around and pretend that I like polo shirts, pink, rap music, Zac Efron, etc, like all of the "mainstream" girls at my school. It's not me. When I was a little kid, I wanted to be Wednesday Adams. I'd rip off the heads of my barbies, and carry them around. Then my mom would throw them away because she got tired of explaining why they were headless to strangers at the store. In elementry school, I hung out with the popular girls. I did what they wanted. Wore what they said to. I even tried to hide the fact that my "designer" clothes were just look alikes from Walmart, Good Will, and garage sales. By middle school, I was tired of getting stabbed in the back. I was tired of being ordered around. I just wanted to be me. I ended up being something between Goth, Punk, and skater chic. A friend of mine once said this to me: "You act like a Goth, and you dress like a Punk." So my best friend began calling me Punk-Goth. And I stayed that way straight up through my Freshman year of Highschool. Now I'm a Junior. I don't really feel like I'm Punk-Goth anymore, though I still listen to "Punk" music, like Avril, Green Day, Simple Plan, and Good Charlotte. But I definatley feel more Goth. I've always adored steel-boned corsets. You know, those ones that actually make your waist super tiny. And I'm finally allowed to get one. I'm also really into black and red lace. I'd love to tote around a black lace parasol. But I can't really find one. I occasionally wear pink. I like to watch chic flicks, like Tristan and Isolde. I have the mandatory crush on Johnny Depp (I just bought a copy of Cry Baby last night!!!! *squeals* I haven't seen it in forever). But, I adore vampires, have this weird obssesion with death, practice a form of Wicca, am in the process of going Vegan, am an animal activist, and a self appointed "eco-girl". I'm also incredibly smart (I'm taking advanced classes), dream of getting into Harvard, and I want to be a Historian, whose specialty is in Ancient Greece, and also the Celts. Go figure. I'm just me. I've been just about every "label" there is. Now I'm probably a mix of them all, even a little prep. But guess what? I'm not trying to be. I just am. I'm just me. I've been called a poseur by just about everyone at one point or another, even by the people wearing a fashion trend I started. But I don't mind. In ten years they'll regret following all the fashion trends in the magazines religiously. They'll regret listening to music that they didn't like because it was "cool". But I won't. Because I haven't done that. I'm watching as my sister does, but I refuse to. My dad says that's how me and my sister are different: I'm a leader, she's a follower. I guess that's true to a point. She could be a leader if she wanted to. But she doesn't. She thinks if she doesn't she wont fit in. that she won't have any friends. But that's not true. I might not become Homecoming Queen, or Prom Queen, but I have tons of friends. I'm friends with preps, cheerleaders, jocks, geeks, "gangsters", the cool girls, emos, punks, skaters, scene kids, etc.

so yeah, I'm not mainstream. Not in the least. I wish I was. Trust me. It would be the coolest thing ever! If everyone was suddenly Vegan, wore black lipstick, and had my beliefs, as well as my clothing style, I'd love it. But sadly, that's not the way it is. I am what I am. I'll never change that. Maybe I won't be Goth my whole life. But I'll be okay with that too. I wear and listen to what I like. Take the classes that interest me. Hang with who I like to be around. And mostly just follow my heart.

The previous post was not me trying to show how "non-mainstream" I am. It was just me venting. I, along with all of my friends, found it unthinkable that the prep in question would say that I didn't think for myself. Mostly because he and I used to be friends. We used to laugh at people who dress and act the way he does. I DO NOT think all preps are like that. Nor do I think all preps are bad. Real preps are great! I'm friends with several of them. My best friend since the 1st grade is currently a prep. my own sister is a prep, though not really a genuine one. she, along with the boy who inspired me to write the previous post, are what I consider wannabe-preps. They want to be the stereotype, which, in my town, includes being a jerk to anyone who doesn't dress, act, and believe everything you do. Sad, but true.

So if anyone else thinks I'm trying to be "non-mainstream" I'm sorry. I don't know how else to prove I'm not. Words in a blog are a crummy way to prove anything, but it's about all I've got. And I'm also not bashing the person who gave me the comment I mentioned in the first paragraph. I just wanted to address this. Hope ya'll having a good end of summer/new school year!